An Ordinary Life

Have you ever wished that the challenges would stop, that life would return to its former state?  Have you longed for ordinary days?  Perhaps we should be thankful that our lives are not so ordinary, after all …

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When Jacob awoke from his sleep and said, “Surely the Lord is in this place, and I did not know it.”Genesis 28:16

There are some things that just don't quite fit in the world of chronic illness.  We might try to make them fit.  We might try to hammer them into place.  But try as we might, it is to no avail.

Sometimes I try to pretend (to myself and to others) that I lead an ordinary life.  Some days, that is my cry to God.  "I just want to lead an ordinary life."

I was in Chicago yesterday for a fun trip to my endodontist for yet another root canal. The trip was easier for both my son and I, as I've gotten a power wheel chair.  It gives me a feeling of independence to be able to travel on my own.

Yet, I got lost in a sea of people.  I couldn't see above the crowd.

That's when it struck me.  Most people can't see above the crowd.  

I was ordinary …. like most everyone else there.  

And I decided then and there that, no, I didn't want that ordinary life.  

I want an extraordinary life.

The one where I can pray to my God while nervous as heck about a root canal, and sense Him with me, calming me, reassuring me, understanding my fear.

I want the extraordinary life that my challenges have brought me because in this extraordinary life, I know God is real, and loving, and kind.

I've had to give up a lot in this life.  I'll no doubt have to give up more.  It can be very sad to view the things that don't fit and watch them fade away.

I think I've had to reframe my thinking - look at things through different eyes.

Yes, there is an appeal to living an ordinary life like those who are well.

But my not-so-ordinary life has led me to that extraordinary life -

with God.

Father God, Help us to realize that, much like Jacob, you are here with us, in the land of chronic challenges.  Help us to desire not ordinary days, but extraordinary days, with you.  Amen and amen.

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