A Gentle Spirit? Not Always …

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Living with high functioning Autism has been interesting.  For the longest time, I had no idea why I would blurt out ill-timed comments.  I was on the boisterous side when I was growing up - and well, lets say I failed “lady-like” 101. Social “niceties” escape me.

I find I can hide it fairly well behind a computer screen, where I can write and rewrite and delete before I hit “send.”

In real life, I can be rather loud and speak my mind quite freely. (A bull in a china shop comes to mind.)

And, uh … then there is this *tiny* bit of a temper thing. (Ahem)

So, as I am studying my way through what I am coming to think of as God’s pathway to peace (Philippians 4: 4-9), what I realized is, that right after we are called to rejoice, we are asked to let our gentle spirit be known to all men. 

Gentle?

Um.

Ok.

So, off to Scripture I went, searching the word “gentle” and found that, especially in Proverbs, it can have a lot to do with our speech as well as our demeanor. 

Some examples:

Proverbs 15:1 A gentle answer deflects anger, but harsh words make tempers flare.

2. Proverbs 15:4 Gentle words are a tree of life; a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit.

I found nine other verses relating to having a gentle spirit.  

What really spoke to me was that, immediately after we are told to let our gentle spirit be known to all … we are told, 

“The Lord is near.”

That sure changes a lot for me.

What if I was truly aware that the Lord was near me when I want to lash out in anger?

What if I realized I was speaking harshly in His presence?

We are called to be like Him - and gentle was a word used to describe Him.

That rejoicing thing that I wrote about yesterday?

Well, give me a list and I can read through it, remember why, and admit there is a lot for me to rejoice over, even now.

But this gentle spirit thing?

It’s gonna take work - and prayer - and time with God for me to realize that gentleness is something that can be produced in me by God’s Holy Spirit.

I think I’ve kind of turned a blind eye to that fact.

But when I think of gentleness as being one of the stones on the road to peace, I realize that I need to be aware of my actions.  The way I behave when things aren’t going my way. The way others see me, even on the bad days.

Cuz even when things aren’t going my way - they are still part of God’s plan for me.

Gentle spirit?

Pray for me!

I’m gonna need it.

Father God, the differences between our life in the flesh and our new life in the spirit are so profound.  Help us to be aware of how you would choose us to respond when tempted to do otherwise.  Help us to remember that you are, indeed, the unseen listener to every conversation that we hold, and every action that we make.  Amen and amen.

PDF download for verses I found relating to the word “gentle” just in case you are interested!

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