As the Dominos Fall

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I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! Psalm 27:13

I sometimes feel like my life is a series of dominos.  One life event seems to trigger another and we often fall from crisis to crisis.  Some of the life events are in the good things category.  I was able to do my art show yesterday with a minimum of health issues resulting.  Yet, the domino trail didn't stop there.  It didn't stay "good" for long.

Before we even got home, I got a call from my mom's nurse.  It seems my mom was refusing to have an EEG to find out why she was having multiple small seizures.  I talked to her about how it was a needed procedure and she finally acquiesced. She is a stubborn woman.

Only a short while later we get a panic call from my sister asking whether or not we needed to put a Do Not Resuscitate status for my mom.  It seemed the EEG had triggered heart issues and things looked iffy.

Short story, she ended up being ok enough that they are transferring her to a nursing home rehab today.

But, the stress!  I kept thinking, "Why today?"

And, today it continues, as her memory fades more and more, I get multiple calls from my mom about what is going to happen next.

I have to admit that it all can feel like way too much.

I also have to admit that I am seeing more and more how unkind the aging process is.  Or seems to be.

Maybe that is because I am in contact mostly with people facing challenges.

I realized that my contact with healthy people is rather limited.  

Being at my art show yesterday, which incorporated a European Market sale, was like a breath of fresh air.  I saw healthy people strolling, laughing, enjoying the amazing day we had.

Sometimes I forget that.  I get so locked up in my own little world and I forget that there is still a beautiful world out there.

So, in spite of the domino effect in my life, of what seems like negative things.  I see the beautiful domino knocked down yesterday, even if for only a few hours, of a positive and lovely world.

As I type, the sun brightens outside my window.  Sometimes I feel that is my personal little smile from God, as He sees me acknowledge the beauty of this world.

Yes, most of the domino falls aren't what I'd choose.

Yes, I'd rather not be in this line up.


Only almost.

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Because when the wonder of God's creation hits me, I am like a domino, knocked down breathless at the beauty of it all.  My domino turns from black and white into one with beautiful, brightly colored dots. And prayerful, that the next domino I drop onto will carry some of that self-same beauty with it.

Father God, Thank you for the good days, hours, moments, even seconds that we have in our lives.  Help us to be aware that during the dark and dreary times of our life, we will still have opportunities to see Your goodness. Amen and amen.

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