Being Fully Known


I’ve started journaling again.  

Yes, I often type out my thoughts and prayers - but for me there is something more intimate about the feel of pen to paper.  Something more real.  I have colored pencils by my side if I need to use them as well.

I’m realizing that there are wishes and dreams in me that I somehow think I am hiding from God.

Silly isn’t it?

One of the core lessons of Soul Revolution (The latest book on my journey) is about becoming honest with God; so I begin to confess what I know He already knows.  But I’m doing it for me. Learning to be honest with the one who already knows me. 

I read from the book today.

I find words from Psalms that take me back years and years that are returning time after time right now.

Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way. Psalm 139: 23-24

I think those are the very words that started this journey for me.

Know me, God.

Know my heart, God.

Know my anxious thoughts.

And lead me.

I don’t think it can be any simpler than that.  As much as I want to know - I also want to be know.

So, 60/60 (from Soul Revolution - you stop every 60 minutes during the day for 60 days - I have my phone beep - and reconnect with God) makes perfect sense in my life right now.

I can’t be known unless I’m completely honest.

I can’t be known unless I’m transparent.

I can’t be known unless I continually come to God with my thoughts and worries and cares.

There is a sense of relief with these words.  God wants to know me (and already does) as much as I want to be known.

And one day …. ah, that glorious one day … it will happen.

He says so.

For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known.  1 Corinthians 13:12

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