Crying Over Spilled Milk


spilled coffee.jpg

Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful. John 14:27

My housekeeping method is the “pilot system.” 

Pile it here, pile it there.

A horizontal space soon towers with stuff.

Being an artist doesn’t help.  I keep all my supplies, all my books, all my ’stuff’ by my chair. 

Today, as I was trying to balance my breakfast, my computer, two books and a box of pens on the arms of my chair (I know, I know - not a bright idea …), something was bound to give way. 

It was my breakfast and the pens hitting the floor.

And I sat here, chastising myself.

I have tried over and over to get organized.  Honest.  (I  have a shelf full of books on organization to prove it!)

And, I have to admit that procrastination has been a life-long habit for me.  Possibly because my mom was so organized and such a good housekeeper, I went into ‘Idontwanna” mode. That became my almost automatic response to keeping anything organized.

Having a chronic illness has validated that not only do I not want to - I don’t have to, because I’m sick.

Winter is the most painful season for me physically.  (Emotionally, too, but that is another story.)  My body hates the cold.  I’ve gained more weight.  I just don’t move well.  

So things pretty much pile around me if I want to know where they are (sort of), and am able to use them on my own.

My first thought, as I heard the bowl crashing to the floor was, “Why don’t you just give up even trying. This place is such a mess.  It’s useless. Just give up.”

And then, to my surprise, my old friend came to my rescue.

“Idontwanna,” came back the reply.

I sat there for a few minutes and realized things are truly changing in my life.

Rather than give up in despair, I’m wanting to give it over to God and let go of the self-recriminations and ask Him how I can handle this.

And I’m sure that the answer I get back will be better than any self-help book I could try.

You see, that has been the problem all along.  I’ve been trying to do it all myself.

And all along, I’ve never had to.

Digital image: Grant Cochrane

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The High Places book study started this week!  It’s not too late to join us! 

Join up with those of us who are traveling Much Afraid’s path.  (M.A. is the main character in the story.) Just drop me a note, or leave a comment on the website and let me know you are interested.  Need a book?  They are available on Amazon in paperback and Kindle versions.  (Kindle version is $1.99 right now and you can get a free app to read on your phone or computer!)  Need help with the financial part?  Just let me know.  God has taken care of that part, too!

If you did not receive the intro letter with your username and password, please contact me through this site.  Also, you might want to check your spam folder for the email.  Make sure that encouraging words at me.com is in your address book!

Hinds Feel on High Places Kindle Edition

Pursue the Intentional Life

Soul Revolution



(I have taken the liberty to enroll in the Amazon Associates Program.  Proceeds from any book purchased through Amazon through this site will go toward providing study books for those who are unable to purchase them on their own.)



 © deni weber 2010-2015