Finding God in a MRI

Modern 3T MRI

"I don't know how I'll do it."

Those words came from my lips as I prepared for an MRI appointment.  I needed a lumbar spine scan to find out the damage from shifting vertebrae.  The doctor had told me an x-ray wasn't enough.  It could show what the vertebrae were doing, but not what damage that had done.

"You've already suffered nerve damage.  That is why your foot is weak and numb.  I have to see what is happening."

I've a history with MRI's.  I have an inability to lie flat.  My last MRI had to be cut short from the pain.  Even the sound of the magnetic pulses seemed to hurt.  It had felt like my whole body was being pounded.  The sounds seem to affect my heart rhythm. Then add in claustrophobia.

I didn't want to go through that again.

So, over and over I kept saying, "I don't know how I"ll do it."

My oldest son, who is growing spiritually by leaps and bounds challenged me.

"What if you give it over to God?  Instead of saying that you can't - think that with God you can."

I had to stop and realize just what I was projecting with my words.

Then, my son did what I could have done.  He texted folks to ask for prayer.  He and his wife prayed.  He encouraged me.

I was still scared - but I knew that if it was going to happen at all, it would happen with God's help.

A verse I've been reading and re-reading popped up on my phone reminders just as we got to the facility.

"I can do all things through Him who strengthens me."  (Philippians 4:13)

I took that verse with me into the MRI machine.  I didn't realize I'd be taking God in with me, as well.

No, I didn't sail through it.  Yes, it hurt.  But I was able to finish it. I counted backwards from 100 taking deep breaths.  I made visual pictures in my mind.  I listened to the pulses of the MRI and made a rhythm out of them. "I can do all things through Him who strengthen me."  

Over and over.

I visualized climbing up a ladder after Chris until we reached  a rooftop that overlooked an incredibly beautiful scene.  I imagined seeing that city of gold.

I held on to Christ. I was not in that machine alone.

"Just two more scans, deni," the technician encouraged.

Finally, the last scan.

Then, being pulled out of the machine, knowing it was over.

I had finished it.

No - God and I had finished it.

I was right when I said the words, "I don't know how I'll do it."

I didn't know.  I had no idea that God would provide me with ways to stay flat, even though in pain, long enough to complete the test.

But He did.

I just had to remember that He had said He would.

Father God, Thank you for those impossible situations where we get to see your power and might.  Thank you that, through you, we can do the things we are sure we cannot.  Help us to remember that you will give us grace and mercy when we need it and perhaps, when we least expect to find it.  Amen and amen.


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