God - It's Me (Again) …

This was originally written in early 2011.  Sometimes the questions remain the same ...

God – It’s me again.  I’m having a hard time here – and I need to talk to someone.  I … I need to talk to you.

Yes child - go on ...

It’s just that lately … well, it’s just been on thing after another and it’s getting difficult for me to understand.  It seems as if one thing just barely ends and it’s something else.  Today just hit me in the face.

I know.

But if you know, then …

Why?

<Nodding silently while looking down>  I … I said I wasn’t going to ask why anymore – and here I am doing just that.  I’m feeling … well … ashamed.

Oh my dear child, haven’t you yet learned there is no shame in what you feel?  Doubts are part of your walk.  You will conquer them you know.

<Whispers>  Sometimes I wonder …

May I tell you something, child?

<Nodding again>

I have watched my children for so many, many years – and I see the same thing happening over and over.

What is that, Father?

It seems that many of you think that faith is something that just magically appears in your life.  Faith is something that needs to grow.  It’s not always something that somehow gets you over the mountains and through the valleys – it’s something that grows stronger and stronger with each step you take as you face them.

Oh, Father … I don’t feel that way at all!  I feel so weak and helpless.

As well you should, little one ... as well you should.  How much would your faith grow if you didn’t trust me to be the one who walks with you, guides you, and loves you no matter what.  You have to learn to trust in me, child.  Then, you can look back and see all you have gotten through and you begin to realize that yes, I’ll get you through this as well.  

It doesn’t feel like it.

There is that word again.  Feel.  It doesn’t matter how it feels child.  You must look to what is.  You must hold on to me and not let your feelings sway you one way or the other.  You must cling to truth.

<Pondering, then taking a deep breath>  So, this too will help me grow stronger?  As I grow weaker?  It’s such a contradiction.

Yes, child – it is.  And it’s one few understand.  Paul knew, “That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:10) But that knowledge didn’t come to him overnight.  He suffered much before he could write those words.  Words I have preserved for you.

God?

Yes?  

I think that I might be beginning to understand.

Little one, I think you are too.  Now close your eyes and rest in Me.  Let tomorrow take care of itself.  It will.  I promised that to you over 2,000 years ago.

I still promise that now.

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