Walking In the Darkness

(This post was written well over a week ago - before my battle with Shingles began.  The words are even truer now. Perhaps that is why they were written, as God knew I’d need them more today than when they were first penned.)

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I’m sure most of you are familiar with that old trust-building exercise where one person is blindfolded and the other person leads and guides the first simply by instructions, perhaps holding hands as they indicate the safest path.

I first did that exercise years ago at a marriage retreat.

I still remember how hard it was for me to do - especially when stairs were involved.  Scary!

I’m seeing a correlation today in my walk with God.

When I pray, I somehow assume God will give me light for the next step.  

When that doesn’t happen, I wonder what I am doing wrong.

I had to read and re-read Isaiah 50:10-11 when they crossed my path. 

“Who among you fears the Lord and obeys the word of His servant?  Let the one who walks in the dark, who has no light, trust in the name of the LORD and rely on their God. 

But now, all you who light fires and provide yourselves with flaming torches, go, walk in the light of your fires and of the torches you have set ablaze.  This is what you shall receive from my hand: You will lie down in torment.”

It was another “duh” moment for me.

There are times we do walk in darkness.

And from what I read, our biggest mistake is not being afraid of the dark, but rather, trying to create light for ourselves instead of trusting God to guide us through the darkness.

Somehow, I have felt “bad and wrong” during the dark times - of which there have been so many, as of late.  I succumb to fear - fear of the darkness itself.

I’ve not viewed these days as opportunities.  Opportunities to learn to trust and rely on God, instead of relying on myself.

I find myself questioning the old adage “God helps those who help themselves.”

Look where it got Abraham and Sarah - as they decided to let Hagar bear a child for them, instead of waiting on God.  We still bear the repercussions of that choice today.

I am also reminded of the verse in Matthew, “The people living in darkness have seen a great light ….” - a light they did not create for themselves.

I know of my own do-it-yourself proclivities - and I’ve also learned than when I put my sticky fingers into the pie, I make more of a mess of things.

Hopefully, I’m in the process of learning this lesson to simply trust God in the darkness.

So, if I am called to walk on in darkness, I pray I will walk in trustful reliance on God: knowing God is still with me, loving me, and guiding me - even when I don’t see the next step - or perhaps, knowing the step - but not having the light I desire to take it - and taking that step anyway.

Stepping out in faith, until the days when darkness is no more.

And night will be no more.  They will need no light or lamp or sun, for the Lord God will be their light and they will reign forever and ever.

Revelations 22:5

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