In This Moment

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For in him we live and move and have our being.' As some of your own poets have said, ‘We are his offspring.’ Acts 17:28 NIV

Perhaps you have noticed a theme to my recent devotionals, whether those from the archives or recently penned.  I know that I see the concepts of holding on and never giving up coming to the fore over an over again.

I’m realizing that mostly, I am talking to myself about holding on.  It’s been a year since my “death” from cardiac arrest, and it’s been a long and challenging year.  I had hoped that, since I am still taking breaths, perhaps the challenges would ease up.

Yet, I see so clearly how God calls to me through new challenges.

Next week I have a sonogram and, most likely, a biopsy for a breast lump.  I think those are words that cause most women to freeze.  Yes, I know that statistically, the odds are on my side, yet even the procedure carries its own risks for me.  Needing to stop my blood thinner, my poor healing, my tendency toward blood clots all come into play.

Then, in a few weeks an echocardiogram to rule out congestive heart failure.  I have medication induced thyroid and lung issues.  The road ahead can seem bleak.

And yet, for today the sun shines.

There is a peace within me as I ponder what lies ahead. It will be what God wills it to be - and I am safe in His hands.

So, I continue to post devotionals that prayerfully encourage you.  I write more “thank you’s” in my gratitude journal.  I’m even listening to Veggietales “Silly Songs”, which have many of the uplifting songs I knew long ago.  (I bought it for my grandkids, but who knew it would minister to me.)

I look out my window.  Once again, the snowdrops are peeking their little heads above ground.  

Once again, they teach me the lesson that what happens in life is mostly beneath the surface.  

God is using all of the events in my life to draw me closer and closer to Him; and while I could question the why’s of it all - I find there is no reason to. I feel my faith growing - being pushed and challenged day by day.  I find my need of God grows with each moment, and He so graciously responds by meeting me right where I am.

While I could bemoan all the difficult events in my life (and there have been many), I prefer to look at those times as moments that have let me to right now.  

And in this moment, I find God.

What more could I ask for?

Father God, Thank you for the times we realize the growth that comes with pain, the closeness that comes with challenges, and the love that comes from knowing you. Help us to realize that each moment is precious - and each moment leads to You.  Amen and amen.

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