Joyful, Patient, and Faithful?

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I had every intention of getting a post up yesterday.  That was my <ahem> plan.  (Laughing allowed.) The day had a good start. I even made notes for the post.


Then, my day went off track.  I moved a way that my body didn’t like and the rest of the day was muscle-spasm city and pain.


I’m sure some of you can relate.


The gem I found yesterday and revisited today?


“Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.” Romans 12:12


To be honest, yesterday morning I thought I had a handle on this illness thing, as I wrote the notes to guide my writing.


It truly felt my challenges were beginning to take a back seat to my focus on God.


After the spasms hit?


Not so much.


They grabbed my full attention.


What I’ve noticed is that when I write something to share, I am often challenged by that very thing.


And I was.


Big time.


Joyful?  Not particularly.


Patient? Uh, no.


Faithful in prayer?  Certainly not yesterday.


Or, to be honest … not on a lot of days.


Prayer is the hardest part for me, at times.  It’s not a well-developed or well disciplined habit.  And, most of my prayers are what I write out.  Sometimes I wonder if they even are prayers - or just ramblings.


I go back to my verse for the year and my word for the year.


Transformed.


I think I was, in some way, thinking God would wave some kind of magic wand over me and ….. behold ….


The new and improved deni … 2.0.


But much of the work, albeit the power itself, comes from God, is mine.


I must choose to be joyful in hope - even when I feel no hope.


I must choose to be patient in affliction, when I truly want the affliction to pass quickly.


I must choose to be faithful in prayer, even when I don’t feel like praying.


So perhaps Romans 12:12 is my gem for today after all.


Not only a gem to find.


But a choice to make.


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