Morning Thoughts and Hard Questions

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Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. James 1:2-4

I had a strange thought this morning.  At least, it seemed strange to me.

I wondered if, sometimes, I am praying against God’s will.

Sounds kinda harsh, but I’ll explain.

I am seeing how God uses the circumstances around me to change me.

The many difficulties I face force me to look to God.

I can no longer rely on myself.

It took losing much for me to realize that I need God above all else in my life.

I started wondering, if, when I am praying for God to remove an obstacle from someones life (or my own), if that might not be the very obstacle they need to grown more in Him.

I think, that when I pray with specific answers in mind, I can set myself up for disappointment when God answers with a, “No, my child.  Not this time.”

One of my daily prayers has been for my own healing.  (Is that selfish?)

I pray often for the healing of others.

But, what if that illness or circumstance is just what needs to enter their life (or mine) right now?  What if that illness is the final step on their way to total reliance on God?

Do my prayers help … or hinder.

I’m not saying I’m right or wrong in these thoughts.  I’m really not sure.  

I think of Jesus is the garden and how He prayed for deliverance from the cross, if it were at all possible.  But, acknowledged, “Not my will, but thine.”

Sometimes, I am so sure I have the answers for others.  I think I see what they need and I pray in that direction.

So, while I will continue to pray for my preferred answer, I think I’ll make sure I am also praying for God’s highest good for that person, even if it looks like a calamity in the moment.

His will …. not mine.

God’s love for us is great. 

He knows what you need.

He knows what I need.

I must trust in His mercy and grace, that each and every situation will bring us closer to Him as we look to Him.

I feel this might be a bit “preachy,” and that is not my intent.

It’s just something that jumped out at me this morning as I pondered my own situation.

Do I really want something prayed away that will bring my ultimate good?

Hard questions.

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