My Theory on Life

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For God, who said, “Light shall shine out of darkness,” is the One who has shone in our hearts to give the Light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ. 2 Corinthians 4:6

I have developed this theory on life.  

God created us jammed full of different emotions - and to have lived a good, full life - one is allowed to experience them all.  

To that, I say “Amen!”

I will admit that I’ve wondered if I’m looking at limited time spent on this earth.  I think when one reaches my age, you begin to ponder the time left ahead of you in this uncertain life.

I’ve done a lot of reflecting back on my life.

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I have known so many great joys - and many disappointments.

I’ve been ecstatically in love

and have also felt as if my heart was shattered beyond words.

I’ve felt pain - emotional, mental, and physical.

I’ve felt such happiness.

The feelings of holding a new-born baby - just minutes old.


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Looking with awe over Lake Michigan as a beautiful yellow sun sinks seemingly into the water.

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Being at a helium balloon release and watching with awe as a myriad of colors soar up into the sky and slowly disappear.

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The peace of knowing two of my sons have drawn closer to God.  

The joy of being a grandparent.

Being surrounded by loving and caring family.

Learning to love so many things that it feels sometimes as if I’ll literally burst from the wonder of it all.

Friends, music, nature, color - I could go on and on.

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Yet, I have known the depths of despair, too.

The worst being the brutal murder of my daughter ten years ago.

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Losing four important people in my life in less than a year.

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My  dad, much loved, now gone.  

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My mom’s horrendously painful sink into dementia - seeing her rock back and forth muttering “Mama mama mama” and “I want to go home.”  Heart breaking.

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Losing my beloved big brother who I adored beyond words

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 - and a mere month later, my amazingly loving and supportive husband, who literally held me up at times.

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My illnesses.  Celiac disease.  A stroke.  Ankylosing Spondylitis.  Losing the hearing in one ear.  Needing to learn to walk again.  My afib and cardiac arrest.  And now - cancer.

So many highs - and so many lows - and so much in between.

It’s interesting to look back and see God’s hand weaving the pieces of my life together - balancing the joys and pain.  Giving … and taking away.

I’m not meaning this to be a maudlin post, but rather one that points to the fact that we all experience so much - good and bad.  Pain and joy.

And as God continues to stitch together the fabric of my life, I can say without a doubt that God is good.

God gave me a special present yesterday, in the form of a visit from a friend I’d not seen for years.  We sat and talked for several hours - as if previous conversations had never been ended.

Our consensus?

It is what it is.

And it’s all good in its own way.

Thank you, Lord.

Let the Light shine.

I don’t know if the music comes through on the emails - this is “God Is So Good” - VeggieTale style.  

My prayer for you today?  That God be with you in a way that is so real and so amazing, it takes your breath away.  (In a good way!)

 © deni weber 2010-2015