Out of the Darkness - Day Five


This is the final day of my postings the Out of the Darkness prologue.  If you have missed any of the other days and would like to read them, I am linking them below.

Day One HERE

Day Two HERE

Day Three HERE

Day Four HERE


She found herself thinking intently on these ideas.  The pain could be gone just like that and she would live in the comfort of those arms forever and dance with the stars as she always dreamed of doing. Her mind raced as she contemplated the perfect joy. Yet her mind kept going back to the other information given to her. There was a reason, a reason she was here and she had not fulfilled that responsibility yet. Almost at once, the knowing reassured her it was all right.  There was no shame in leaving it undone.  One need only bear so much pain.  A choice was offered to her. “You may stay, if you choose, but know there will be more pain than you can understand right now.  One day, one day you will dance with me among the stars or you may come with me now. It is completely in your hands, my love. Just let go and this part of your existence is over. Whatever your choice,  I love you fully and completely, always and forever.

            She thought back to that little girl sitting on the hillside, staring at the stars – and suddenly she knew. She knew what her choice would be.  With a deep breath, she said out loud, “I need to finish what I was supposed to do. If you believed in me enough to trust me with doing it,  I must believe it, too.  I know I can endure, must endure, until my reason for being here is completed. I know one day I WILL dance among the stars.”

She felt the bonds between her body and herself grow stronger. She felt a healing begin to take place - healing that would take years but one she knew would ultimately be done. She opened her eyes to see the stars twinkling outside her window.  

“Lord, “ she breathed.  “I choose life.”

But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD." 


And this, dear readers, is my reason for keeping on. I posted this, not only to encourage you, to but remind myself that in times of intense pain, there is still a reason to go on.

I believe God reached out to me in a most miraculous and personal way.  He met me where I was and loved me to the realization that there is still work for me to be done.  And when that work is done, you will find me in the heavens, dancing with Him among the stars.

I have added a PDF download of the rest of the prologue at the end of this post.  Feel free to read it.  It leads you further into the story of my daughter’s death and the life we faced as a family who lost someone at the violent hands of another. Perhaps, at some point, the whole story will be told.

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