Because you have kept My command to persevere … Revelation 3:10

Uh, Lord?

It’s me again.

I know you’ve been hearing from me a lot lately. Almost constantly, it seems. And I know I’ve got so much to be thankful for these past few months.  I’ve really felt Your presence here.  I feel I’m getting to know you better.

But, (you knew that was coming, didn’t you, Lord?) I’m kind of confused.

I mean, I had this cancer thing all neatly tied up in a box.  The staging was good.  It hadn’t spread through the lymph nodes.  Life was good, again.

I mean, not that it isn’t always good with You.  But - it was kind of predictable.

Take a simple pill and probability no cancer worries?  90% - Right?

And now … I find out more.

With more test results comes the fact that it may be a far more aggressive cancer than I knew.  It may already have spread.  

I had no idea that lymph nodes were only one of three ways cancer can spread.

And, I’m not a good candidate for what could possibly be a necessary chemo.

I talked to the doc today - and she said my multiple medical conditions made her “nervous.”  Not exactly what I wanted to hear.

Actually, none of it was.

Funny thing though … you prepared me for this meeting.

I made time to read Oswald Chamber’s this morning before I left.  You are using his words in my life a lot lately.

This morning I read:

“Perseverance means more than endurance - more than simply holding on until the end.  A saint’s life is in the hands of God like a bow and arrow in the hands of an archer.  God is aiming at something the saint cannot see, but our Lord continues to stretch and strain, and every once in a while the said says, “I can’t take an more.”  Yet God pays no attention’ He goes on stretching until His purpose is in sight, and then He lets the arrow fly.  Entrust yourself to God’s hands.  Is there something in your life for which you need perseverance right now?  Maintain your intimate relationship with Jesus Christ through the perseverance of faith.  Proclaim as Job did, “Though He slay me, yet I will trust Him.”  Job 13:15 - My Utmost For His Highest May 10

I’ve no idea where things will go from here on out.  None of us do, truly.  Yet, the way you spoke to me this morning through this devotional, centered me.  It got rid of the anxiety and fear that was beginning to swell.

I reminded myself that, “God’s got this covered, too.

So, in the long run - nothing has really changed.  I don’t need to let my thoughts spin off in a zillion directions.

I can focus back on the fact that you will use all of this for good - to further Your purpose.

I become a willing arrow stretched on this taut bow.  Yes, feeling stretched beyond what I thought was possible, but being upheld by you.

So Lord, fire away when the goal is in sight.

This arrow will choose to persevere through faith.


By the grace you have so freely given to us all through the sacrifice of Your Son, the Lord and Savior of all who believe.

Amen and amen.

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