Seeking and Finding God


Do not let kindness and truth leave you; Bind them around your neck, Write them on the tablet of you heart.  Proverbs 3:3

One of the perks I was looking forward to after I had completed my education - 14 years of schooling to get several graduate and post graduate degrees - was that money would no long be an issue for our family.  

My kids would be grown, and my husband and I could begin to live our own life.  We would have paid our dues, so to speak.

That was when I was 53.  I figured I had 15 or so years to work and enjoy the profits of all my labors.

Well, here I am 7 years down the road - and it certainly wasn't the road I expected.

Instead of working at a profession I loved (counseling special education children), I sit all day in a chair and do some writing and painting when I can.  Money is ... shall we say, scarce?

Instead of my husband and I "living our own lives," we are raising the children of my deceased daughter - daunting at our age.

Both of us have multiple chronic illnesses that turned our lives upside down.

Some of you reading this, already know my story.  Some of you are new to the blog.  Having the background I do in psychology, I know that life stories are important.

Each of us has a story.  Our stories have some similarities.  Each story brought us to the point where we need encouragement - where we seek out meaning - where we seek out God.

Whether we like it or not, God is central to each of our stories.  We each make a decision about God.  Will He be in my life?  Will I live a life that looks to Him?  Will I live a life that is self-seeking and self-serving?

The life I had planned was a self-seeking and self-serving one.  I knew what I wanted.  I was writing the end to the story my way.

God had other plans and I ended up on a different road.  Do I say that God caused my daughter's death and our other tragedies?  No.  I don't believe that.  I do believe that God used those events to point me in the direction I needed to go.

My car crash, stroke, and every other event led me to where I am today.

God used each and every thing to bring me to this moment as I sit and write this post.

And in this moment, I know I am surrounded by God, loved by God, and kept by God.  

My way would have never have gotten me to this place.

Why am I sharing all of this?  I guess because I am grateful.  I'm grateful I have a God who doesn't listen to my every wish and grant my every desire.  I'm grateful that, however painful this all has been, God has used everything to help me see how much I need Him.

That, in the end, He is all that truly matters to me.

And so, I'm curious, my dear readers - how is God using your story today?

Oh - and just a thought - the story isn't at an end yet.  If you've not seen Him today, keep looking and searching.  You will.

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.  Jeremiah 29:13

Father God, It seems odd to thank you for the pain and hurts this life has brought.  Yet, without them, I'd not know You.  Help each person who reads to sift through their own story, and find evidence of You and Your presence.  Help them to know in their hearts that You are the true end of the story.  Amen and amen.


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