Sitting with Pain


Then they sat down on the ground with him for seven days and seven nights with no one speaking a word to him, for they saw that his pain was very great. Job 2:13

It’s been a challenging week pain-wise.  I do apologize for the sporadic postings.  

I’m dealing with some new health issues that I thought were accurately diagnosed, but it seems not as symptoms continue.

This is one of my rubber-hits-the-road places - when I face health challenges that are undefined and I have symptoms that I find scary - how do I live out my faith?

These are the times my mind rushes to worst possible scenarios.  These are the times of fear as the unknown threatens me.

I’m learning through these times, though.

I know, that with God, I don’t have to pretend I am ok - the way I often do with others.

I can admit my fears.

I can focus on Him and take a few deep breaths.

I can try and relax.  It’s hard to relax when you are in pain, but I find that if I can at least keep from tensing up completely, it helps.

I can become aware of other parts of my body.  I tend to carry stress across my shoulders and neck. I take a few more deep breaths and consciously relax them.

More deep breathing.

I tell myself (and God) that I know He knows exactly what is happening in my body.  I don’t know why it helps so much to know someone understands the pain I am in - the fear that I carry.

I find I push people away when I tell them I am hurting or not feeling well.  I guess it becomes like the boy who cried “wolf” - those words are heard so many times that they become meaningless to those around me.

But it doesn’t change the fact that I hurt.

And so, I take those words to God.  I tell Him that I am afraid of this new pain.  I tell Him how alone it makes me feel.  I pour forth my frustrations of doctors who seem to blow off the new pain. 

I just sit with God.

It reminds me of the book of Job, where Job’s friends came and simply sat with him for seven days.  

And so, I go to God and sit with Him.  He is the only one who truly understands.  He is the only one who knows the outcome of it all.

He is where I derive my comfort and my hope.

So, while this situation continues - I cannot promise a daily posting to you all.

If there are no words for you on a given day, please know it is a day I am - or need to be -  seeking God and sitting with Him.

Perhaps, that would be a good day for you to sit with Him as well.

Blessings …

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