Sometimes I Forget …

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Sometimes I forget. 

And it is a forgetting that does not bode well for my health- whether physical, emotional, or spiritual. 

What do I forget?

As I read in Colossians, I realize that I forget just what Paul admonished against forgetting. 

I am trying so hard to please Him and do His will - that I forget how He sees me right now.

Yet now, He has reconciled you to himself through the death of Christ in His physical body.  As a result, He has brought you into His own presence, and you are holy and blameless as you stand before Him without a single fault.  

But you must continue to believe this truth and stand firmly in it. Colossians 1:22-23

Wow.  Just … wow.

And this was brought home today as I read the following verse. 

"You didn’t choose me.  I chose you.”  John 15:16

I felt so humbled.

He didn’t choose me based on my abilities or talents or anything I can “do.” 

He chose me, physical challenges and all. And in His eyes I am blameless and holy.

I have been so consumed with doing (or not being able to do), that I’ve forgotten how to simply be. 

I have been trying so desperately to do His will, that I have tightly taken hold of what I think His will in my life ought be. 

And when those things are ripped away, it hurts - which causes me to realize just how tightly I have been holding on to them in the first place.

I had to realize my goals and His goals are different -  that I did not choose Him and neither do I choose what fruit is to come to bear in my life.

Which means I have nothing to prove to anyone - not even to my harshest critic - myself. 

And those things I was holding on to so tightly?

I choose to give them back to Him.  They were never really “mine” in the first place. 

I only thought they were.

Father God, mere words are inadequate to thank You for all You have done for us.  It is unfathomable to realize that we, faults, sins, and challenges and all, stand before You blameless and pure.  And the most amazing thing of all - even though it may seem we chose You … You were the one to choose us.  Amen and amen

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