Looking Back and Frogs

today

 "Remember Lot’s wife." Luke 17:32

I'd like to say I've gotten to the place of accepting 100% of what happens in my life. I guess about the best I can say honestly is that I'm ok with it most of the time. I know it's a far cry from Paul's statements of contentment.

 Some days it is more like walking along the edge of contentment. And some days, I fall off rather ungracefully.

Recently, an old friend contacted me about visiting for an evening as they’d be in town for the first time in several years.  As I thought back to the last visit, I couldn’t help but realize the massive changes that had taken place in our whole family – and very few of them going in a positive direction.

I got angry.  I felt empty.  I felt cheated. 

It sounds silly to say that I hadn’t even realized how drastic the problems in our family had increased.  It reminded me of the fact that if one places a frog in a pan of water and slowly heats it, the frog is not even aware that the water is getting hotter and hotter, and he stays in the pot oblivious to what can happen next.

At least the frog has the option of jumping out of the water.

I would have told you I was content. but I was only content when I wasn’t comparing myself to the past.

As soon as I start comparing, I know I’m done for.  Whether it is comparing to my own past or to someone else – that comparison breeds discontentment, frustration, anger, and depression.  It becomes a self-feeding spiral.

My lesson?  To listen to God and to stay in today.  I have to realize the “now” is all there is.  If I want to stay spiritually and emotionally healthy, I need to focus on the moment and listen to God’s words. 

I realized something else from the rather unnerving experience – not only will I not add to my life by worrying, I won’t add to it by being frustrated, angry, or bitter.  In fact, I make it worse. 

The only looking back I can do is to look back and be grateful for the good days that were and then turn and face the future with God.  

Father God, How amazing it is that you can take each and every circumstance we are in and teach us lessons about who we are - and who You are.  Help us to be grateful for all the good in our past and to be able to let go of any comparisons in our lives and face the future securely in Your love.  Amen and amen.

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