What Happens When the Caretaker Gets Tired

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Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth Does not become weary or tired. His understanding is inscrutable.  Isaiah 40:28

Somedays, I am just plain tired.

Worn out.

I berate myself for the things I can't do simply because I'm tired.

I should be able to keep going, right?

Such was my train of thought a few days ago.  As I flipped through my journal, I realized  just how much my life has changed from that of being a giver - to being a taker.  From being a caretaker to being the one who needs care.

How I can fight at that!

It's not a role I like.

I starting thinking about my days of being a mom.  They started in 1975 with the birth of my daughter.  Now, with my original four grown, some having kids of their own, my 'mommy' days could be over.

As the adopted mom of my biological grandchildren, my role as mom still goes on.  Thirty-eight years in the active role of mom.

No wonder I am tired! 

It takes a fair amount to really rattle me, although my little reactive-attachment disordered little girl can give me a run for my money.

I've seen so much of this before.

I've learned.

Which got me to thinking about my spiritual life.  I've had to deal with a lot there, as well.  From my own walking away from God after an ugly, unwanted divorce where I felt God had abandoned me to, to starting a long journey back to God after the brutal death of my daughter that shook me to my very spiritual core.  The issues themselves haven't gotten any easier.

But you know what?

I've learned there, too.

I've learned that God can hold this tired spirit together.

I've learned that I needn't fall completely apart when my cardiologist wants to run some tests 'just in case.'

I've learned that even though this caretaker gets tired, the one in whom I live and exist never gets tired.

He never gets weary of caring.

I've often wondered how Jesus handled the constant demands of the throngs of people who wanted His touch.

Perhaps I'll never know.

I'm simply glad He does.

Because this caretaker is in need of her caretaker more than ever before.

Father God, Thank you that although we were created in Your image, You are so much more than we are.  Thank you that you never get too tired to care for us or too weary to watch over us.  Thank you, that as our God and Father, You have a perfect understanding of all we need, even on the days when we don't know.  Amen and amen.  

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