When I Stand Before God (and a really cool Giveaway!)

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Jesus said to him, “If I want him to remain until I come, what is that to you? You follow Me!” John 21:22


I have a jealous streak in me.  I don't like it. I never have, but it's there.  From envying what others have to what they are able to do, I've felt envious.  Jealous.

I was jealous in relationships.  I was jealous when I'd see people prospering when I wasn't.  I was jealous over the achievements of others.

I so often wanted what others had and felt badly that I couldn't have it, too.

It has been something I have prayed about, tried to change on my own, tried to replace the thoughts, faked being happy for others, but the jealousy remained.

Maybe to a lesser degree.  Maybe jealousy no longer shouted at me.  Maybe now, it would whisper in my ear.  But it never went away.

I think it finally did.  And it took the chastisement of the Lord to do so.

You see, I was envying something that was happening in the life of another.  I didn't see how they could possibly be doing what they were doing.

My childhood voice of "It's not fair!" came to the forefront.

And this time, I said it to God.


I quickly received an answer.

"What is that to you?  If I choose to grant her the ability to do things, if my calling for her is different that yours, what is that to you?  I need you to follow me."


It was almost a voice I could hear.  It was so clear.

"What is that to you?"

It gives one pause when the God of the universe calls you out on something.

But I think it gave me the push to understand that what God chooses to do in the life of another has absolutely nothing to do with me.

I'm realizing that part of my jealousy was in feeling that God somehow played favorites.  And I was not the favorite.

How untrue that is.

I have been blessed in so many ways.

I can write.

I can paint and draw.

I have gifts I rarely ever use!  

And I need to start using them, illness or not.  If it is something God wants me to do, I will follow His leading.

I recently found the Erma Bombeck quote online and I love it.

When I stand before God at the end of my life I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say,"I used everything You gave me."

I can't be trying to use someone else's gifts.  

I must use my own.

Amen and amen.


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