When It Feels Like God Has Let Go

‘Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10


For some reason, during my prayer time this morning, an old memory surfaced for me.  

It was my dad, teaching me to ride a bike.  

I was a scaredy-cat as a kid - and pretty darned uncoordinated, especially for someone who would go on to be an artistic-dance skater.  

My dad told me to get on the bike and he'd hold the seat and run along next to me. That sounded like a plan to me.  I really wanted to learn to ride a bike!

I was ok with that.  My dad was my hero and I knew he'd keep me safe.

So - he'd do just what he said.  Our driveway had a slight down-hill slope and I was exhilarated!  At one point, I turned around to tell him how excited I was - and I saw he wasn't holding on - just walking next to me.   I remember a feeling of terror that I was on my own.

And I crashed.

I was crying, with my knees skinned, and my heart devastated.

He had let go.

I didn't know that was the plan all along.  The point was for me to learn to ride by myself and not need him to be holding on.

I'm realizing that in some ways this is a metaphor for my walk with God.

I seem to crash a lot.

And sometimes I feel God has let go of me.

Those same feelings surface - fear,  abandonment.

Yet, God is right there - even when I can't see Him holding on.  I know there are times I need to try my wings.  Times I need to step out in faith.

But just because I don't feel Him holding on, 

It doesn't mean the He isn't there with me, cheering me onward.

Father God, Thank you for the earthly examples that point us to you.  Thank you that we can have perfect confidence that when we step out in faith, You are right beside us, encouraging us along, and giving us the opportunities to fly.  Amen and amen.

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