When the Battle is Not Ours

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I’m finding the reaction to my news of having breast cancer kind of interesting.

There is a lot of support out there for me, which I greatly appreciate. Any and every prayer is welcomed.

I also find I get some odd (to me) reactions.

“You must be so devastated by this news.”

“Oh, your poor family has been through so much!”

“I don’t know what I’d do if I were you.”

I guess those are fairly typical reactions, actually.  Perhaps it is my response to those statements that is odd.

Many people don’t understand when I say that God is good.

Many people don’t seem to get that I’m not terrifically worried.

Yes, I know, depending on the findings, that this is a survivable thing or  it could be a devastating fatal one..  

Either way - it’s gonna be ok.

I’m surprising myself with these reactions.

A few years ago I’d be a crumbled mass of emotions.

For right now, I know God is firmly in control and things will happen as they ought to.  

Whatever God decides is best.

Some people see that as me giving up.

Far from it.

It is more like me giving it over.

Giving the outcome to the one who already knows it.

Am I nervous?

Sure.  I don’t particularly like the upcoming procedures.

Do I doubt that the outcome will be other than the one God has ordained for me?

Nope.

I know - deep inside - that God is in control.  Every day is a gift to be savored.

I’m so grateful for all those who are praying for me.  I’m sure not saying I don’t want prayer!  It is only through His mercy and grace that I can type these words.

But the ultimate decision belongs to God.

No one lives forever.  I don’t think I want to, given all that my body has decided to do lately!

But, whatever God’s timing is … it will be perfect.

In that I rest assured.

The battle is not mine … it’s the Lord’s.

If I do my part - He will do His.

"...and he said, "Listen, all Judah and the inhabitants of Jerusalem and King Jehoshaphat: thus says the LORD to you, "Do not fear or be dismayed because of this great multitude, for the battle is not yours but God's." (2 Chronicles 20:15)

Father God, I pray you can bring us to the place of complete acceptance of your design for us.  May we not simply give up hope - because our hope is in You, but rather, may we find the peace that comes from understanding that You and You alone are ultimately in control - and in that, we can be confident and content.  Amen and amen. 

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