When Your Strength Wanes

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Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 2 Corinthians 4:16

I was talking to a close friend of mine and confided in her that this is probably the weakest I have felt since I had a hyper-thyroid issue that caused me to lose massive amounts of weight very quickly.

I’ve so little strength.

She, logically, asked if I was depressed.  After all, enough has happened lately, it would make sense.

But no - I don’t feel depressed.

I have the desire to do many things.  My family made the wonderful gesture of putting many of my art supplies in roll around drawers and shelves by my hospital bed - which resides in our living room - so I could make something with as little effort as possible.

I still don’t do much.  I want to.  Oh, I WANT to - but the energy isn’t there.  My body has little energy -  little strength.  It can be as if just making it through the day is taxing enough.

But God knows my heart.

I have had more things cross my path in the past 24 hours regarding strength than can be attributed to coincidence.

An art journaling group I belong to called “Documented Faith” - has themes for the month.  I’ve done little to look or participate this month.

The theme?  

Strength.

Of course.

I read the blog post.  Then another.  Then another.  I found verse after verse after verse.

“Seek the LORD and his strength; seek his presence continually.”  1 Chronicles 16:11

Time after time strength.

"I walk in the strength of the Lord God.  I tell everyone that you alone are just and good.”  Psalm 71:16 TLB

“Whoever serves, let him serve as one who serves by the strength that God supplies.” 1 Peter 4:11

“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God: I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

“I depend on God’s strength, not mine. You bless all who depend on you for their strength.” Psalm 84:5

I know that more important than strengthening my body, God longs to strengthen my faith.  It’s not my agenda - but His.

In my search this morning I found this blog post: Praying for the Strength That God Supplies.

I liked it so much I printed it out to read over and over. I hope you take the time to read it.

I realized that God knows what needs strengthening in me.  Most of all?  My faith and trust in Him.

Do I wish this body was stronger?

You betcha!

Do I desire that He strengthens my hope?  Not hope that I’ll “get better,” but my hope in Him?

Yes.

So, as I read and learn about strength - the strength we can only get from God, I understand more and more.

I pray for strength to do His will.

Not mine.

Father God, I pray for each who reads these words, that you will strengthen them, in their inner selves, so they can continue to serve You as long as there is work to be done.  Amen and amen.

that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man, Ephesians 3:16



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