Revisiting: Why Is This All Happening to Me?


Despair

In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.                     1 Peter 5:6-7

My most current reading is  "The Little Princess" by Frances Hodgson Burnett (author of The Secret Garden). The main character, Sara Crewe, is the daughter of an Englishman stationed in India during the days India was part of the English empire.  She is a self-reflective little thing, and shared this insight with a friend.

"It just happened that I was born with a father who was beautiful and nice and clever, and could give me everything I liked. Perhaps I have not really a good temper at all, but if you have everything you want and everyone is kind to you, how can you help but be good-tempered? 

I don't know how I shall ever find out whether I am really a nice child or a horrid one. Perhaps I'm a HIDEOUS child, and no one will ever know, just because I never have any trials."

When I think of trials, I think of my father - who suffered for years in constant pain - some days and nights so bad he could not sleep.  Yet in all those years I don’t remember a cross word coming from his lips.

When we would go to visit him, he’d always try to stand up to hug us hello or goodbye - even though it hurt him to do so.  We’d try to dissuade him, but to no avail.   He wanted that hug.

He went to be with the Lord four years ago - and I still marvel at the testimony he left behind.  I can still hear him say, in all sincerity, “The good Lord must have a reason to keep me around.”  He was 92 when he died and he left a witness for four generations: “Keep on keeping on.”

My prayer - and goal - is to become more like my earthly Father and more like my heavenly Father.  I strive to take what is given to me in stride, although I am often not successful.

I truly believe that suffering and pain reveal who we are - what our character is.  Are we negative?  Do we trust God enough to handle our pain?  Do we persevere?  Do we endure?  Do we pray?  Do we “keep on  keeping on”?

Do I think this is the only reason for our pain?  No.  Do I think this is one very real aspect of it?  Yes.  I believe it gives us insight into who we are and where we are in our journey in this life.

Father - I pray that today, for each who reads these words, you will grant the patience and endurance necessary to make it through the pain and suffering that the day may bring.  Help us to bring it to you and to respond to it in a way that brings glory to You.  And God?  Thank you for my dad.  He left an amazing gift behind for His family.  May we each realize that we are leaving  a legacy behind us that generations to come will remember.  Amen and amen.

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