Worth and Value - In Whose Eyes?

God is amazing.

Just so you don’t miss that, 

God is amazing.

I’m not sure how or why all of the things that are happening are happening right now.

I’m not gonna pretend I understand it at all.

My last post was written about the way envy can suddenly consume me - and my hating the fact that it does.

I don’t want to be that jealous, envious person.

And God knows that.

Yesterday, during my Sabbath rest (I try to refrain from doing *me* stuff from dusk on Saturday to dusk on Sunday  - no, not a legalistic thing, but a choice to take a break and bask in God), I was reading more in my Soul Revolution book as well as my Pursue the Intentional Life book.  (For some reason, the two are going hand in hand for me right now.)

The chapter I began reading in Soul Revolution was basically about envy and it’s roots.

That sure got my attention.

Here I am telling God how much I hate this part of myself, and through a book, God gives an explanation as to why I’ve become so envious.

I knew it fit as I read it. While it doesn’t apply to envying the accomplishments of others (my biggest issue), but rather speaks to the owning of possessions, the idea behind it fit perfectly.

“I don’t need more things to make myself into someone of worth and value.  I have enough right now to be fulfilled and content.”

Worth and value.

Somewhere along the line, I learned that in order to be valuable, I had to do.  And not only do - do better than anyone else.  Then, I’d be ok.

(This is a person who considered an A minus on any test in grad school as unacceptable.)

But I don’t have to do that.  I don’t need to be better than others, more popular, make a larger contribution, be more well known, or any of the things I have strove for, in order to be ok.

In God’s eyes, because of the work of His Son, I am already ok.

I don’t need to prove anything to anyone.

Least of all, myself.

And what I need do when I feel those tentacles of envy grasping for my heart, is realize just where my value lies.  

With God.

So what if I can no longer do all I did?  What if my paintings aren’t the best in the world or the most popular, or that I don’t become the sought after lecturer and author I once desired to be?

Even if I had done all of those things, I’d still be questioning my value.  There would always be something there trying to pull me down.

But what a relief to know I can let go of those desires.  That God will plant new desires in my heart and they will grow and come to fruition in His time if I give my thoughts and intentions to Him.

Intentional living.

I love it.

Delight thyself also in the Lord, and He shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. Psalm 37:4-5

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Things are looking good for the Hinds Feet on High Places book study!  The site is up, being tested (so far, so good!), and should be fully operational in a few days.  I will be sending out usernames and passwords beginning next Monday.  You’ll have time to introduce yourself (no pressure if you’d rather lurk), and get familiar with the site setup, so come January 12, we can be off and running!

There is still time to join up with those of us who are traveling Much Afraid’s path.  (M.A. is the main character in the story.) Just drop me a note, or leave a comment on the website and let me know you are interested.  Need a book?  They are available on Amazon in paperback and Kindle versions.  (Kindle version is $1.99 right now and you can get a free app to read on your phone or computer!)  Need help with the financial part?  Just let me know.  God has taken care of that part, too!

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